I’m through with being sick. I’m through with struggling everyday. I’m through taking all of this daily in hopes that’ll make a difference. I’m done. It’s over. I’m over feeling bad and unhappy. Especially feeling unhappy. My kids need me. My hubs needs me. I need me.
Things change now. Wish me luck

t.r.m.

God, I miss the days where my kids ate only breast milk and formula. My food was mine. Their food was theirs because I certainly didn’t want it. They didn’t know any better. Life was simple. And even more wonderful, I could eat in peace.
It’s seems so far away, those days of eating and enjoying. And as I sit here trying to keep my pepper jack cheese away from my daughter, I dream of having sole custody of my food again.

It’s not just a few things I eat, it’s EVERYTHING I eat. Even the picky one has to get in my face and ask questions and , yuck, sniff my food. He doesn’t want it. He never wants it. He just doesn’t want to miss out on the control factor of having what I currently possess. Afterwards, he refers back to my iPad or phone that he has stolen for an extended time period. What’s mine is his.

Then there’s the girl. She’s affectionately referred to as “garbage disposal”. Saying she’ll eat anything is totally the understatement of understatements. I’m constantly making sure that no batteries, wires, shards of glass go missing. And with the new teeth, we are at about 12 now, she’s gotta have something in her mouth at all times.

So, I’ll never eat again. Unless in the dark. Or under my blanket. In the car.

Drinking my coffee. Nothing is sacred.

t.r.m.

A lazy day. Something that happens so infrequent in my house. Kids relaxing or what ever it means when they aren’t buzzing around like they have rockets strapped to their bums.
I have to “do” stuff. I can’t just sit and let the house fall apart while I watch in horror. I’m not suppose to do stuff but tell a mom, any mom or any parent for that matter to not care for their children and watch them laugh at you as if you had three boobs.
My hubs is a great help. He doesn’t let me do anything too physical so I may heal. But dirty clothes pile up.

You all know how that song goes.

Lately, it hasn’t inspired me to write which is just sad. I love to write. I love to read what I wrote and think its effecting someone. I wanna know that someone laughed or was touched. I know deep down that I can be a better writer and, with anything you do, it requires practice & discipline . The discipline is the piece I struggle with the most.

Ever wanna give up on something entirely? Toss it aside or make it go away because it doesn’t provide the desired effect? My writing does that sometimes. It’ll fail my expectations.

Then yesterday I saw that my post on a breast feeding ad in South Korea had received 70+ comments. And today, I got word that a post I wrote got 2065 page views.
My desire to stop just went away.

I can say that I write for me, to document for my kids and to build up my writing chops. But C’mon , I write for you, the reader. Someone who chooses to read my stuff. Who I’ve connected with.

Name a writer, any writer who wrote for the mere joy of writing without caring about creating an audience.

Yup. I thought so.

t.r.m.

This past Mother’s Day was a compromise on my part. Normally, my husband takes me, us, to Santa Barbara for the day. I look forward to it every year. The sun, the beach, the art walk, the restaurant, it’s all amazing. Even the year I was pregnant with Hallie and still going through morning sickness, it was memorable.

This year, we spent it with my husband’s family. And that was ok too because I told him that I get a do over.
I get my one day with my family alone after Mother’s Day and that’ll be my Mother’s Day.
Call me selfish but as a Mom we get 2 days a year that’s ours. Our birthday and Mother’s Day. Christmas? Belongs to the kids. Halloween? Belongs to my hubby. If another “holiday” exists for us moms, I’ve never heard of it.

Again, selfishly, I want my fucking day.

So we hang with my hubby’s family, which yes is my family too. It involved my kids running around like crazy yet within distance of an adult about 5 feet away ( thanks to many adults watching while I lay on an ice pack)
This was just fine if it hadn’t been for my son’s behavior. I heard “stupid” more times than I care to name ( we don’t allow that word from him.) He was seen hitting and kicking his cousins and generally running when called or asked to do something. He just royally sucked. I can totally say this because of him being my child and all. Family or no, misbehaving kids make for a long and shitty day.

I was embarrassed around family. I watched my MIL try to “rope” him in. I was NO help while trying to manage my pain. But hey the Miami game was on, so there was that. (I don’t watch basketball-this of course meant nothing)

Next year, we head to Santa Barbara. If my son’s gonna go crazy, i’d rather it be around a bunch of strangers. Or better yet, a babysitter.

I’m so willing to pay for the sanity.

t.r.m.

Because we all need something to manage through another Mama’s Day, I’m here to pass on some caffeinated love to someone who desperately need it.

So without further ado, the winner of a $25 Starbucks e-card is…

Erica J!

Because of this reason right here:

Used with her mama’s permission.

If that’s not a reason for needing coffee, I really don’t know what is!!

And speaking of spreading the love, I was surprised by your friend and mine, The Fairy Hobmother. If you don’t know about The Fairy Hobmother, she floats around the blogging universe searching for those that have been visiting others and paying it forward. She’ll never tell you she’s coming until she’s there!!

I was so excited to hear from her and even more thrilled that she gave me an Amazon gift card just because!! She asked me to say hi to my readers and let them know she’s around. You’ll find info about her at www.appliancesonline.co.uk If you are lucky, she’ll visit you too. Just keep visiting and commenting on blogs and keeping the faith.

Hope everyone has an amazing Sunday and Mother’s Day filled with love and family!!

Cheers!

t.r.m.

Tired of all the mamas getting good stuff?

Awwww…..they freaking deserve it!!!

But, you bring up a good point so…..

Send me a message via email to therobotmommy@yahoo.com on why you need coffee this Mothers Day weekend.

I’ll select a winner Saturday while tipsy on martinis based on the most creative reason. My hubs will help me vote.

And I’ll put it at the end of this post.

Then, I’ll send you a $25 Starbucks e-card to print out and use at any Bux near you to enjoy on Sunday.

Wanna win?? Email me….NOW!!

Cheers!

t.r.m.

Got a special mommy in your life?? Maybe a new mommy with a bouncing bundle? Maybe you are that bouncing bundle mama??

Then you are gonna love this…
The newest and really awesome service that making a name for itself is sample/trial boxes. These great little packages are filled with high end items to try out before you commit to buy.
They are offered as a month to month subscription or as a gift/ trial period of one, two or three ( or more) depending on the company.

I was lucky enough to be asked by PetiteBox.com to not only try out a box but they sent me one to give away!!. PetiteBox is awesome goodies sent out for mommy and baby to try out and love. And love I did.

This is the actual box you will receive. Don’t worry. It’ll look all pretty when you get it
The box was supplied with the following items:

MAM PACIFIER
MAM’s cutting-edge pacifiers combine technological innovation and trendsetting design to help give babies a healthy start in life Retail Price $6.95

ANGEL DEAR BLANKIE Angel Dear Blankies are sweet, charming characters, machine washable and cashmere soft. 13″ x 13″ with just the right simple details to soothe and delight. My daughter took to this right away and she now sleeps with “monkey”. I just washed him too this past weekend. He came out perfect afterwards. Retail Price $13.00.

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LANSINOH HPA LANOLIN OIL
Lanolin that soothes and protects sore nipples and is 100% natural so you don’t have to remove prior to breastfeeding. Retail Price $10.99 for 1.41 oz.

BASQ CALM RESILIENT BODY OIL . A super toning, skin strengthening body oil with a soothing, relaxing Lavender Pear Aroma. Retail Price $38.00 for 2.0 oz

BASQ ADVANCED STRETCH MARK BUTTER The most advanced ingredients for stretch mark prevention and repair in a rich, skin smoothing butter. Retail Price $35.00/4.0 oz

LOTUS WEI INFINITE LOVE MIST Awaken your nurturing affectionate nature and enhance magnetism, attractiveness, and passion with the beautiful Rose Geranium and light, sweet citrus aroma and Orchid, Magnolia & Lotus Flower essences in this energetic mist. retail Price $35.00 /50 ml.

EARTH FRIENDLY BABY SHAMPOO/BODYWASH
Shampoo & Bodywash is hypoallergenic and contains natural ingredients to gently clean from head, shoulders, knees and toes. LOVE this stuff! My kids love it and it’s lavender fragrance is heaven!! Retail Price $9.95 /8.5 oz

So….. Want one? All entries must do the following: ( yes, it’s a lot but for this prize I want only the most excited applicants!!)

1: “Like” PetiteBox on Facebook
2: Tell me in the comments below who you would give this to OR why you would LOVE to have a service like this provided to you.
3: “Like” me on Facebook
4: “Tweet” this contest with the following: I just entered the robot mommy’s AWESOME PetiteBox giveaway (I hope I win!!) #PetiteBoxRocks
5: Follow both 6: Email me @ therobotmommy(at)yahoo{dot}com with your shipping address and a quick note that you've entered and that you kinda love me for having this giveaway

Now, since Mommy’s Day is so soon I’ll only be having this contest until Thursday May 11th I’ll be shipping the box overnight so that you can receive it by Mama’s Day.

Good luck everyone!!

t.r.m.

and the winner is REBECCA!! Congrats, lady! I’ll be shipping out the box today! Happy Mother’s Day, new mama!!

Hello everyone!! Totally checking in on a random Sunday morning. Mostly because I missed you guys. Partly because I’m up early. It’s about 5am here in Cali-land. And also because I’ll be having a giveaway starting tomorrow that I really don’t want you to miss out on.

So check back here tomorrow for a chance to win a PetiteBox filled with mommy and baby awesomeness!

In the meantime, go grab some coffee and enjoy your Sunday. Oh and don’t forget about me at Mom365. I’ll have some great mom posts this week and I don’t want you to miss!

Cheers!

t.r.m.

I’d love to say my days outcome doesn’t revolve around my children’s nap time. I would lovvvvvveeeeeee to say that. I’d be a liar. And a fraud. And every parent that reads my blog would be laughing their ass off.
Like you are right now.

Naps. They are a beautiful thing. Filled with peace. Calmness.

There is no calm in my house at this moment. There’s crying and screaming. And Pandora playing while I write to drown out the said crying and screaming….

The heartbreaker? Baby girl can say “Mommy” now….As in,

MOOOOOOMMMMMMMMMMIEEEEEEE! MOMMMMMMMMMEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE! AH, MOM MOM MOMMMMMMMMMEEEEEEEEE……

EEEEEEEEEE!!!! MOOOOOOOOOMMMMMMMEEEEEE!

So I took her out. Probably a stupid move on my part..

Then this happened:

Can you see how she sasses me? And that I need rest to record video properly?

Naps. Totally wasted on kids.

t.r.m.

Back to my misc. ramblings post….

In leu of my current situation, I’ve noticed that my writings have been suffering. Maybe not to you as the reader, but me as the writer.

Back a few months ago, I took mini hiatuses because I felt little connect to my site. I felt my stories about my kids were not entertaining or I just couldn’t express them. Besides this fact, my health issues became a focal point on the site. And while I tried to be funny regarding going to see a new doctor every week, It was taking a toll.

I don’t want my site to suffer nor do I want my writings at Sprocket Ink and Mom365 to be an afterthought so from now on, I’ll write for my blog once a week instead of 3x. If I pay more attention to the quality of my writings and not my numbers, I’ll write more often and with that, write better because it’ll mean more.
Will I end up posting more than once a week? Probably but not for the month of May. I’ll have other postings like giveaways and reviews. Maybe I’ll vlog. ( Crap, better start wearing makeup) I’ll write for me first then all of you.
This feels to be the reason for my stress and lack of connection to t.r.m.

What started as a documentation about my son and my family has slowly developed into a reason to be a writer first.

Anything worth doing is worth doing well.

Considering this is what keeps me going day in and day out, it shouldn’t be half-ass. I hope you agree.

As always, thanks for sticking by me. Maybe you too have been challenged in your writings. Let’s stick together. In a way, you are all my muse. Enter Xanadu reference here

Cheers!

t.r.m.